Matt and I were in the car the other day going on a date because when you're married and have no kids and just want to go to the movie at that moment, you can. You don't have to ask for permission. You don't have to call a sitter. If you have an extra 20 bucks, then you're free to do as you please. We were talking and we passed by a soccer field and it had to be a thousand degrees outside. We saw all of the kids playing and I look at Matt and say, "Wow, parents are pretty amazing. Think of how busy we are, getting every thing done with the house and working on paper work and you're working and I am teaching and we have had these trips, and we've been out of town every weekend and it's all so much. Other people have just as much on their plates, but they even make time for soccer practice."
He agreed and said "It really is incredible what people turn into when they become parents. They just seem to make time for their kids activities because it's a priority".
I returned with, "You know, as busy as we are, it's actually pretty fascinating that so many parents get their kids to graduate high school, let alone all of the extra stuff that many parents seem to do too. I mean, for 18 years they did stuff like enrolled their child, had them clothed, and fed, and up and ready and actually got them to school enough days that they graduated. Incredible!"
Then Matt replies, "Yeah, it's like the ultimate Giga Pet".
Hand to forehead.
I know that we're technically old enough to have kids. I know that our parents would love it. I have friends that have kids and they're doing a great job. We even still hang out! Danielle's daughter, Serenity, is the most precious little human. We went to a flea market with Danielle and Joe and Serenity last week and Serenity wanted to walk around and see all of the puppies. I wanted to visit with Danielle so I handed Serenity to Matt and I'd be lying if I said that watching him hold her and walk around and engage with her about how every farm animal "goes" didn't melt my heart, and make me reconsider for a fraction of a moment the whole school thing. I feel extremely convicted to stay the course and finish school. I feel that God has big plans for me in academia and it's a niche where I feel comfortable and feel that I can succeed and feel fufilled in my work, all while getting to be a mom.... one day.
I've been working all morning cleaning the house and doing to preparations for the move. I'm going to Atlanta for an Adeepi conference, so I have to get about 1000 ducks in a row by Wednesday. It's just me! No one else is demanding my time (not even Pistol!). But somehow I wonder how I'll get it all done, and what if I DID have distractions? (Except those self inflicted distractions like wanting to go lay out at the pool and go to a movie with some friends....)
My big and my g-big both had babies in May and I know that they're going to be wonderful mothers. They're successful and bright, and so capable. I'm glad I have them to look up to because I can't even imagine doing it all right now. So to all of you moms out there reading this, thanks for being a good role model, because I have no clue how you do it.






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